So you may have noticed by now that CWC has sort-of become Streams in the Wasteland headquarters. Yes, it’s true…
I’ve been so busy finalizing the eBook and crafting the finishing touches that I really haven’t had much time, or inspiration for that matter, to write any blog posts on other subjects. I hope you aren’t getting sick of eBook talk just yet…because I’m just so stinkin’ excited about being able to offer this resource to my readers for ABSOLUTELY FREE that it is all I’m thinking about and putting my effort towards these days.
Just to fill in any newbies that may be dropping by the blog this week:
Streams in the Wasteland is a 31-day devotional aimed at finding hope in the hardships of life. With the intertwining of two deeply personal stories of hardship and heartache, one of a battle with ovarian cancer, another with infertility; this devotional explores searching for hope on the dark days.
Last week I shared a bit more behind Graci’s story and influence in creating this eBook devotional. This week I want to share more of my story, a story of endometriosis and infertility, a story that God is determined to use for His glory.
My Story: Ugly, Beautiful Infertility
Before I started down this road, this long journey of trying to become a mama with all my might; I was guilty of thinking it’d be easy to get pregnant. I couldn’t comprehend what it meant to want something so desperately but have no control in being able to bring that desire into reality. Under these circumstances, I can feel pretty helpless. Defeated at times. The fears, doubt, and discouragement can creep in and lead me to places I don’t want to go. There is definitely an inner turmoil and struggle that comes with a woman yearning to be a mama but struggling to make it happen.
I’ve been pulling from the deepest chambers of my heart in sharing my journey from endometriosis diagnosis to the emotional struggles of infertility here on Country Wife Chronicles. God is stretching me; I’m being refined by the fire in this season of my life. And I feel like I’ve held it together, for the most part. But some days I’m just fed up and mad and angry and frustrated…that we can’t just get pregnant already. I’m saddened with grief for something that may never be.
It is on those hard days that my faith grounds me. I know God is good. I know He is present. He won’t leave me to figure this all out on my own, even when I try to do just that. I know, I know, I know…that my pain will not be wasted. That He will use my story for His glory; He will use my hurt for good.
Every day I pray for God to bring Wildland Man and I a baby. And every day, I keep waiting…my hope is in my Father. God’s grace has given me the strength and courage to share my infertility story. He is giving me beauty for ashes in this journey. It’s mighty hard to see sometimes, but there is beauty to be found in this struggle. I pray that the Lord will use my story, my experience with infertility, to bring you hope in the hardship through this devotional.
In my walk with infertility, I’ve been desperate for answers and expecting God to speak in the silence. I’ve begged and pleaded with God to take away our pain and yearning and bless us with the desire of our hearts. And in the silence, I’ve fallen back on one thing…hope.
Hope in the Promises of my God. Hope in the future He has planned for me. Hope in the Word to bring me peace beyond understanding.
Last week I shared with you how affirming Graci’s story was, and is, for my faith as I walk this road of infertility. I’ve relied on her message of hope while walking through a bigger battle than my own more times than I can count.
Our two stories are different.
Graci suffered from ovarian cancer that eventually brought her home to Heaven. I’m in the depths of an infertility journey, not knowing what’s next or how to navigate these waters at times. In Graci’s battle and in my current struggle, the common ground is that we have had to rely on our faith to give us hope in our hardship.
If you haven’t yet, be sure to click below to get your very own copy of Streams in the Wasteland!
**Update: Streams in the Wasteland is available for downloading**
Get my FREE eBook devotional, “Streams in the Wasteland: 31 Days for Finding Hope in the Hardship” by clicking on the graphic below:
I cannot wait for you to get your hands on this eBook!
Be Still & Know…
